I remember when I was like…16-18+ and i’d go to shows and i’d see / party / get to know band members and some of them would be in relationships. (and some of them behaved. and some of them didnt. thats not my point.)
I’d see their girlfriends post things online or the guys would say something or at times - the girlfriend would be at the gig. and i’d always say / think (fucking stupid) things like…their girlfriends have it so easy you know, sure they go away but at least its them they go home to every time. these good looking guys. they have them. why do they moan online about them going on tour I don’t get it? they come home to you?
I get it. I really get it. and i want to eat every single word i ever said all those years. because i get it. and now - i feel horrible and so sorry and really truly regret every word i ever said about any of those girls.
It’s fucking horrible. It sucks. Im in his t-shirt and he’s half way across the world and its night time in London but its morning time in Australia and it sucks.
And then again next month. and then again the next month after that. it doesn’t go away. theres always another month. another tour.
A year ago I went on a drink with a boy that literally changed my world. I love him enough to want a cookie jar and a dog. But it really…really…sucks.